Day eleven, Workout eight, Blog four

So last night my internet craped out on me, I would pretend that I was about to post or anything I had thought about it then though some more after i could no longer watch the community because the interweb died. But i did feel bad for not posting, that is the point of these exercises to make myself a better person, I need to put down my thoughs even if they are incoherant rambleings.  I have contacted my sister shrinks office and no one has returned my call i guess i will call them again tommorow, I have wednesday off so i might be more accesable.  I think a professional will help, maybe help me with the cause as opposed to just working on the symptom, for those who have forgotten and so i dont the symptom is that i am a lier. yesterday I went and started packing my things, just the act of putting books in boxes feels wrong, I am not ready to give up on this, but it isnt my call right now. I was the one that was wrong, I am working to make me better but i am not the one that has to forgive. Today was actually a good day in the micro Cosme that is me right now.  I applied to a job that i kinda really want, doing sales for a company i belive in so i hope that my resume gets me in to see them. work though long at time flew by for the most part. then i went to the gym. I had a head ache, still do, and that would normaly stop me but i am done makeing excuses so i went, I took the kick boxing cardio class and it was hard, i couldnt keep up the whole time, some due to stamina, some due to my compleat lack of coordination. But i stayed the whole class and did as much as i could even if some was half time. I think i will go back next week. I have an appointment with the trainer on Wednesday and my training manager is gonna meet with me for a minute tomorrow night, and i have started my 2000 cal a day diet which is the recommended diet by the USDA i know i could cut more calories but i am working up to that.