unplanned blog vacation over

I really don't want to blog today, i think in due to the fact that i haven't blogged in a few days and yeah. But i went back to the gym today (i hurt my knee last week) so i guess i should do two good habits today. I got the book what color is my parachute to help me in my job search. It is pretty interesting. on a side note the cat is currently staring intently at the wall i believe there is a bug there but he has been in the same spot for about 10 minutes. after staying out late all weekend I have to be careful to get in bed at a decent hour cause i do so like to sleep in. I had a blast all weekend and i am really glad for good friends. I think that my self esteem has taken a lot of damage over the last ten years. I though about my personality and the way i express myself and the way i have in the past. And i am for sure more charismatic and vivacious without him around. I thought and still do think much of his opinion but i seems to matter a bit less today than it did yesterday. I do catch myself sinking into a quiet place when i am uncomfortable or bored but i don't seem to unconsciously do it all the time. I came up with another thing for my list "Just because he will have me doesn't make I'm good enough" It sounds very harsh but let me explain. I have in the past returned the attentions of anyone who share and have consequently ended up with some non idyllic significant others.  I need to set goals and standards and stick by them cause if i return the attention of just anyone well that makes it hard to be faithful. OK so i think it is my bed time. goodnight inter webs sweet dreams.