Manic Tuesday? That isn't how the song goes.

I have run the gamit of emotions today. I woke up happy, but quickly progressed into sadness. After I actually got out of bed and moving I moved on to anger, whis dissapated right before my work out where i could have used the anger productively. a cool numbness then set in only augmented by the burning of my thighs during kick boxing. then back to a sad kind of numb. after dinner i reimerged from numb into a quiet furstration nad uncertanty. now i sit here bloging and the numbness is back. what is causeing these mood swings? i feel it is simply my thoughts, had a good nights sleep so i started at happy.  began to feel lonely so i moved onto sad. felt frustration at something that i have not accepted that i cannot change and felt anger. that sliped through my fingers and i resumed the emotional safe zone/ default state of numbness. had somthing i wanted to share so sad creeped back in. got furstrated at myself and questioned the motives of my actions so i was uncertan and frustrated. now i am just clinging to scraps of my emotionally worn out soul andhiding with in in the numbness. the emotions shifting worrys me less than the numbness my default used to be happy, bubbly and perky and i want that girl back.