Do you? Do I? What now?

Do you miss the way I get excited about little things? The way I try and make you laugh? The way I dance when I'm happy? The way I sing along to the radio off time? The fact that I can blab on for ages even though I'm exhausted? The way I am pretty happy in bad situations? The way i would do little things to make your day easier to show you i loved you? Cause these are things I like about me. I am not going to change the fact that I find joy in life even though the joy is very hard to find right now. Do you miss the way I cry instead of getting mad? Cause this is a healthy way of dealing with frustration. There are lots of things I like about me and I need to remember them every day. I would be physically ill after lying to you. I think that was my souls way of saying I shouldn't. I miss the way you would hold a mirror up to my faults. I miss the way that I felt bad when you came home to a messy house. I miss the way you made me want to be better. I miss the way we could talk for hours about our days. I miss the way your cool head would keep me grounded. I miss the way you made me feel.
One of the topics in my book that I have really taken to heart is circle of influence that there are things you can't change but you can change the way you react to them. I can't change the past nor can I change you by rehashing it. I can only say I am sorry and learn and grow from my mistakes. Nor can I change you by telling you what you did wrong I can only step forward and learn what I want and how to express my needs and wants. I cannot change a stressful situation I can only choose to not let the stress affect me and become more efficient. I can change my reactions but not the actions of others. I cannot go back in time but I can choose how I go forward.
I will treat the people around me with truth and fairness.
I will constantly strive to better myself.
I will accept those around me for who they are and pass no judgement.
I will forgive myself and others.
I will not forget who I am and what makes me special.
I will not seek my self worth through others i will find it in myself.